January 2011
8 posts
I think my role in life to play is the placeholder boyfriend.
If only I could live in blissful ignorance, the days would pass by much faster. Being numb to everything feels so relieving. It’s as if I can just breathe and be. But this is a false sense of living.
I know that eventually I have to face what’s out there and it scares me. I am still afraid of facing what’s in my heart, what’s on my mind, what’s in my soul.
But...
Light cannot exist without darkness, much like happiness cannot exist without the presence of sadness. Only because we could not know what the one could feel like without the other. So you would think that one who is deprived of one of these things would be ecstatic to be able to experience it. But fish accustomed to darkness are blind or are born without eyes. A hermit who has secluded...
The days are still hard to cope with, but it’s easier when there isn’t a look of concern on the faces of others. The thoughts are still constant, but they don’t sting as much as they did. I guess my issues just need to surface once in a while, then I can just stick a lid on them and sit on them till they start to explode again. I don’t know how to rid myself of this...
“A customer just told me, “My date has bigger assets than you.”
– My box office attendant’s account of a customer. Whose date was apparently a guy.
“I know you feel bad about your part in what happened to Fred. And you should....”
– Angel, Season 5: “Underneath”
Starting a tumblr and having it post to my Facebook is probably the same thing as making a status update, but it’s a step away from that site… At least I can collect my scribings and look back at them. Welcome to the scratches on the wall.
It’s currently 2:15pm and I am still wearing the same clothes from last night. I am pretty sure I am hungover, but with a tall cup of...